I’ve been in love with New York City for as long as I can remember. No joke, easily over 40 years and I’ve never even been there. My favorite movies take place there and my heart pretends I’m the lead character. My favorite songwriters are from there and I imagine sitting on a stoop with them singing. I dream of a day when I will walk across the Brooklyn Bridge, sit silently in Strawberry Fields or take in the energy of Times Square. All of it makes me a kind of homesick just because I truly love it.
I believe part of God’s plan for my life is to live there. I think God gives us dreams that help us catch a glimpse of His plan. I just don’t understand the timing. I’m almost 50 years old and I’m sure I could have pulled off a visit there by now, but the timing has never worked out. It hasn’t been part of God’s plan yet.
My daughter gets to go there this summer. I am so thrilled for her and yet, there is a part of me that feels pain at watching God’s plan unfold for her that is so intimately connected to my own dream. Why don’t I get to go? When is it my turn? Ah yes, enter the voice of the monster envy.
Here’s what I’m learning about God’s plan…God’s timing is part of His plan. I don’t have any comprehension of His timing and honestly, I don’t think I ever will. Not knowing when helps to keep me dependent on Him and trusting in His perfect will for me, which is nothing but love. It’s hard to wait, to watch someone else get to do what you want, to feel sidelined and, to believe that you are equally loved by a Father who has a perfect plan and perfect timing.
I know my dream of living in New York is coming. I also know that someday I’ll understand the timing of it all. Right now, I need to keep dreaming, keep pursuing what God has planted and be faithful. I get the honor of watching my daughter’s dream come true this summer and that’s crazy beautiful! And I love how God is weaving our stories together and also apart. What I mean by that is, I see the designs are in the same peice of art and, they are different designs, different colors…different plans.
What are you dreaming about? Are you trusting in God’s perfect plan and perfect timing! My invitation to you is to not give up your dream because it feels too hard or feels too big. I believe fully that dreams are the seeds that when planted in our hearts by God, bloom into the beautiful plan of God for our lives.