Isaiah 55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.
Proverbs 16:9 The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.
Proverbs 20:24 A man’s steps are from the Lord; how then can man understand His way?
Psalm 37:23 The steps of a man are established by the Lord, when he delights in His way.
I’m strategic. I don’t like to waste time and I don’t like to just sit around. When there is no plan, I honestly start to get a back ache because it stresses me out. I even have to plan days where there are no plans for that day. I also like to understand and know why something is the way it is. Not to the level of say, how a clock works at the mechanism level, but I like to have something make sense. My brain is always on and it is always processing. It’s nuts and it’s exhausting.
Lately, I’ve been processing the question of why things are the way they are in this current season of life. I see myself spending significant hours in a job that isn’t furthering the Kingdom in a direct way. I know that I am making an impact for Christ in the relationships and there is deep and amazing value in that, please don’t mishear what I’m saying. But the actual work I’m doing, the 40 hours of pushing buttons on a computer at my desk aren’t of any eternal value and so my brain labels them “waste” with a HUGE red stamp. This drives me crazy because it isn’t part of my plan. Did you catch that? I’ve determined that the job that I know God has brought my way in order to meet the needs of my family is a waste of time because it doesn’t seem to fit into MY plan. And I know God looks at me, smiles and shakes His head.
If we won’t delight in all that God is, Creator, Comforter, Father, Friend, etc, then we will go crazy trying to makes sense of this life when it is never going to be possible. Follow me here:
- God and I don’t think or plan alike. God thinks at an eternal level and I only think at a temporal level. (Isaiah 55:8)
- I can make all the plans in the world but I can’t bring them into existence, only God can. (Proverbs 16:9)
- Because all I can do is plan and not actually create the steps to fulfill the plan, and because only God can do that, I will never be able to understand because I can’t think like God. (Proverbs 20:24)
- If I can only plan but never create the steps, and if only God can create the steps but I’ll never be able to understand because I can’t think like God, then my only choice is to delight in God so that I am in the right place at the right time. (Psalm 37:23)
Yikes!! So all of the sudden, the planner-girl is brought to an invitation: will you just delight in all that I am and let Me, your Father, take care of the rest? This invitation brings me to the brink of insanity because I am left with two choices: delight in God or go crazy trying to do something you have NO way to do and can never understand!
God’s ways appear crazy to both me and the world around me and guess what, He doesn’t care. God is at no point worried or concerned about what anyone is saying about what He’s doing. He never craves your approval, just your delight, love and surrender. God is fully willing to ask you to do things that will make your friends and family wonder if they should step in and have you committed. YOU may even think that now and then. I’ve said, “what on earth” more times in the past 4 years of following God then in the 42 years prior to that and guess what, God’s ok with that!
Delight in God or go crazy, those are your only choices. Living an unchained life is nuts, it goes beyond the norms of this world and truly flies in the face of all that “makes sense” at a temporal and earthly level. Delight in God and see what He’ll do. I believe that once we can say ok God, I’m just going to delight in You, God will transform us in ways we had no way, on earth, in our tiny brains, to ever imagine and life will be a grand experience. I’ll happily be deemed crazy for that adventure! It’s the narrow path, it’s not easy ever, and it is ridiculously worth it.
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